tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-50369430406115137792024-02-07T14:24:11.125+00:00~ Wishfull Thinking ~Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.comBlogger26125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-73492497713127591772012-12-25T18:20:00.002+00:002012-12-31T20:00:15.840+00:00Waving not Drowning<div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #351c75;">Hello! any Friends out there......and a big 'Thank You' to anyone who has sent Greetings for Christmas.....</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;">I have meant to 'update' for so long, but as time goes on, it's harder to catch up, as such a lot has happened, and sorry for the year of absence</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;">Still dealing with Oropharyngeal Cancer, and have had another MRI Scan on the 7th December. Did have two previous ones, and the diagnosis was 'It hadn't <em>progressed. </em>However, still getting a lot of the same symptoms, so I'm waiting for result from MRI, and go to Oral Maxillofacial clinic on 7th January.......the waiting is the worst part, but feel if there was any <em>problem</em>, I would be recalled earlier. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;">I had the PEG Tube (feeding) removed after 10 months, and can swallow normally. However, the Saliva Glands/Tastebuds have never recovered, but we remain hopeful. Most things have little or no taste, eating out is impossible for now. In fact didn't have a cup of Coffee for 5 months.....</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;">Stilll trying to maintain my weight, as I did lose 4 stones at the time, always wanted to lose a little, but prefer my former self. Never thought I would be faced with the problem of trying to gain weight. Very unstable with balance, and further problems arose in September, when I fell at the back of the House, and broke a bone in my foot, didn't got to A & E until 4 days later, escaped without a Cast!, but hurt both wrists, and knees.</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;">So that has hindered my life somewhat......apart from that, hadn't been out by myself since June 2011.</span><span style="color: #351c75;"> Allan has supported me through the 18 months, never thought my life would come to this, but I have so many things to be grateful for.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;">On a lighter note.....it was Allan's Parents 'Diamond Wedding' Anniversary on 26th December. I tried for some months to arrange for a special 'Greeting' fom the Queen (when a couple have been married for 60yrs) and it happened on the 22nd with it being Christmas. They were thrilled of course! I even got a Note from Buckingham Palace to say when ,and how it would happen.</span><br />
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<br />Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-23257431890824528142011-12-22T23:50:00.004+00:002011-12-23T00:22:30.525+00:00Emerging from a dark place.......<div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiKpWcM-wkFgNyAGw-ffH2BIhpVy987mc4oIJtUVdJlaGG7NTETa6ZvqWjiVp6r37HNrRkVHCalsI3OZ4d-EcZXHJAMFZU0lgqjI3AUVNwWUEfqqzWq6hJ5F8D1KfbGffLkMEfjppVqVIY/s1600/christmasbear.gif" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" rea="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiKpWcM-wkFgNyAGw-ffH2BIhpVy987mc4oIJtUVdJlaGG7NTETa6ZvqWjiVp6r37HNrRkVHCalsI3OZ4d-EcZXHJAMFZU0lgqjI3AUVNwWUEfqqzWq6hJ5F8D1KfbGffLkMEfjppVqVIY/s1600/christmasbear.gif" /></a><span style="background-color: white; color: purple; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Regular followers will be aware of my Health problems for the last 5 yrs, and attending various Clinics. Having being diagnosed with Pemphigoid (compromised Immune system) in 2007, along with Biopsies, and Laser treatment, in April 2011 was found to have a 'lump' in neck area....was sent for Ultrasound, CT and MRI Scans, and core Biopsy. this was found to be 'secondary' Cancer, and it had progressed from somewhere else, but where?.....into hospital for another 'investigation' and then found at the base of the tongue.</span></div><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Our life was turned upside down at the end of May when I was diagnosed with Pharyngeal Squamous Cell Carcinoma (Stage3). Was told I wouldn't survive an Operation, and unable to have Chemotherapy because of other health complications, including Diabetes. Radiation was the only thing on offer for me.</span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">We were due to go on Holiday to Wales the next day, and duly went, but our thoughts were very much in the future, and what was going to happen.</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_1775448622"><span style="background-color: #d9ead3;">My last Blog entry was the night before being admitted to Hospital to have a PEG(</span></a><span style="background-color: white; color: purple;"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_1775448622"><span style="background-color: #d9ead3;">percutaneous gastronomy tube) inserted in my Stomach (July), this was for when <em>swallowing</em> <em>would become difficult</em>......little knowing how soon that would be! (</span></a><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="background-color: #d9ead3;">don't know how to get rid of the WHITE bits...sorry</span>)</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Next followed two 'fittings' for a head 'Shield' to be used throughout..... I thought this was for protection, BUT, it's so that they can <em>bolt </em>to the Radiation table, as treatment is given. It probably sounds horrendous,but you get used to it, and going every weekday from August 5th-September 23rd. There is usually at least three Radiographers in the room with you, and they are mostly very kind, and you get to know some of them more than others. It's a constant round of Dr, Dieticians,Speech therapist etc...you get a bit weary of it all, as you progress through treatment, but it is neccessary, and they really look after you.</span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I was determined to 'eat' normally, but couldn't even swallow Water within a few treatments. I have lost almost 3 stones in weight, and the Consultant said the 'feeding tube' is my best friend just now.</span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The actual Radiotherapy isn't painful, it's what comes after, the skin breaking down etc. was told it would get worse at the end of treatment, <em>and it did</em>!</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">After the recent news, things are moving along quite quickly now, but feel there have been previous delays along the way. But, as people keep pointing out to me, Mouth cancer is difficult to diagnose, until it reaches a certain stage, also the Pemphigoid mirrors a lot of the symptoms, and I have had that for over 4years. I did mention in my last Post that I was having a dental checkup, which resulted in some teeth being removed, due to the upcoming Radiology. I was upset over this, but it was deemed necessary. I will not go into all the medical details, but it was explained to me, and if I hadn't agreed, may have become difficult later with infections etc.</span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Things are moving pretty quickly now, I have had the 'head shield' made, and it takes two visits, which were last Wednesday, and again on Friday. You then go on a simulator, and the precise areas are marked out. Because of the area being treated,the Radiation isn't painful, but it's the effects of it.... I'm having a PEG tube fitted into my stomach, as swallowing will probably become difficult over time, and I'm also Diabetic.</span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I'm going into Hospital in the morning, so this is a bit rushed....not looking forward to this procedure at all, and I will be awake, but sedated....hopefully, only in for one night.</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The Radiology starts on the 8th August, Allan is on holiday from work, for two weeks so that <em>holiday</em> will be taking me daily for treatment. he has two weeks, and usually goes on his own into the mountains for the second week. Would you believe, he was going to Norway, and has just renewed his passport.</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">We have been given a list of appointments, 35 of them in all finishing on the 23rd September.....</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">*Other news.....I mentioned earlier that Allan's Mum was having heart surgery (8th July), and thank you so much for your good wishes for her, it didn't happen then, and was actually delayed twice, even went in, and sent home, not enough staff!</span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">BUT, she had surgery last Tuesday (19th), and is doing reasonably well.</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Did have the biopsies on the 28th......overnight stay. It was my 5th in 12 months. Was told, that the ENT People were in the theatre next door to where I was having Surgery, so both were going to 'take a look'. The Consultants came round next day, and was informed they had found a 'thickening' at the base of the tongue. A specialist Nurse came to see me also, she gave me her card with 'phone number, and her email address. </span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">He didn't beat about the bush, stating that I had Cancer which was inoperable, they would have to remove the Tongue,Voicebox etc., and I wouldn't survive the Operation. (Sorry if it's too much information) I'm unable to have Chemotherapy, because of the condition I already have (Immune System).I asked 'how long'...if i didn't have the suggested treatment, was told a matter of months, and I would become so very unwell, with glands swelling etc...... I'm to have 7 weeks of Radiotherapy, 5 days a week, with weekends free. I will become very unwell, unable to eat etc. so I am having a PEG fitted in my stomach, and a 'Mask' will be made for my Radiation treatment.I will visit each day, unless I become too unwell to be at Home.This is a bit rushed, as I have to be at the Dental Hospital this afternoon, for teeth to be checked out,before Radiation can start. It all should be taking place within the next 2/3 weeks. I am frightened because the side effects of Radiation, soreness,sickness, and eventual PAIN. I am uncomfortable everyday to some degree, so don't know how I will cope, but so many have before me, and will after me.</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Along with all this Allan's Mum is in Hospital, having a triple Heart Bypass on 8th July.....a lot for him to cope with just now.</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">We arrived back on the 3rd June, and had to be in Clinic on the 6th. After a long wait to be seen, the news was mostly negative, for me that is....the neck tumour is a <em>secondary</em> tumour, with an unknown<em> primary. </em>In other words, they can't find it.If they can't find it....they can't treat it. Cancer has 4 stages, as many other sufferers will be aware. I've read that it has to be stage 2 to become metastatic.Rightly or wrongly, I have joined the Macmillan site, and sometimes it's very frightening</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">A very tense time for us....and tomorrow will be my 5th Biopsy, in just over twelve months. The Consultant is going to do a Panendoscopy, and take biopsies in the mouth and throat area. Having hardly any speaking voice for most of the last year, it came back to almost 100% the day before Allan's Birthday (Friday 13th) We thought it was a good sign, BUT, it hasn't been the case.</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-size: large;">Have tried to write an entry, so many times recently, and wondered if anyone still followed me. As you will be aware from recent posts, my health hasn't been good for a long time. I still attend clinic on a regular basis for the Pemphigoid, but recently they were concerned over a raised lump on my neck. No one would know it was there, and it didn't hurt. In April 2010, I underwent an ultrasound examination, and at that time, a tooth needed to come out, and it was thought it was maybe the infection from that. I continued with monthly clinic appointments, and if you remember I had cancer in situ in the vocal cords,which then progressed to the Uvula, and have been in hospital 4 times now, over the last 12 months, having had laser treatment to remove the cells, and a small lump in the throat removed, which was benign. My voice became almost non existent, but recently came back to almost normality. We really thought, I was 'on the mend'.However, the usual Consultant I see every few weeks, became concerned that the 'lump' on my neck was still there, and ordered an Ultrasound again. I had the Ultrasound, and was told by the Radiologist, that it had grown in size, and they needed to do a Core Biopsy, which they did. The lady Consultant rang me at home the following morning, saying she needed to see me again. BUT, we are going on holiday in the morning 27th, so it was arranged to see her on the 7th June. I then received a letter asking me to contact her Secretary. They needed to see me preferably before I went away! it was decided to go today, and Allan had time off to go with me. I knew something was wrong......and was told I have <em>Metastatic</em><u> </u><em>Cancer</em>. The lump appears to be a secondary Tumour, and have had MRI and CT Scans today to determine the problem......My mind is in a whirl, I'm very frightened, and this post has been so hard to write......I now go back for the results of the scans,and what treatment they intend on 6th June. We booked a Holiday months ago, when I was feeling a little better, and now go to Mid Wales in the morning.</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-size: large;">Thanks for taking the time to read, as I begin this Journey, and a new 'chapter' on our return.</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-size: large;">Aileen...X</span>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-37568343088527141202011-03-08T09:23:00.000+00:002011-03-08T09:23:30.583+00:00Still fighting, and hoping to Win!<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Just to thank you for your kind comments and emails.....as you will be aware I was due to go for the results of the January Biopsies on 22nd February.....the result is that I have to have more Surgery.</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">The lesion removed from the Soft Palate was Non Malignant, but I have Cancer in situ (Stage 0) on the right vocal cord, a Cyst/Polyp to be removed, and Reinke's Edema (fluid and swelling on the vocal cords). As you can imagine I am very unwell just now....and worried. </span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I am going to hospital today for pre op assessment, and due for Laser Surgery on the 16th March, at a later date I am being referred to a Speech Therapist. </span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Allan was reinstated in his Job on 31st Jan, after a year unemployed, and has settled back to working again....he can't take me today, but a Friend will go with me, and he will collect us, and bring us home.</span><br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Just to say I'm Home...and have been for a few days. My latest throat operation.....19th January was <em>'different'</em> from the previous two. (June/October.)<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/TUnqdDXdgvI/AAAAAAAAAzY/x-DWUhK-O1s/s1600/surgery.bmp" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" s5="true" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/TUnqdDXdgvI/AAAAAAAAAzY/x-DWUhK-O1s/s1600/surgery.bmp" /></a></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I was probably expecting more from this, but not allowed to speak for 24hrs, and almost total voice loss. It was difficult before, but now so hard to accept that my voice hasn't returned to what it was before I went into hospital, and I feel very tired.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"> Having been a Telephonist/Receptionist all my working life, the voice was important. Anyhow, the aftercare this time around wasn't as good as I would have liked, unable to speak, and in a little room on my own, left to my own devices for most of the time......I go back to Clinic on the 22nd February.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Anyhow, enough of that.....</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">My Man went back to work this week, after 12 months unemployed, reinstated at his previous job, as I explained in a previous entry. He had been with the firm 23 years. they outsourced his job, and it didn't work!</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">He would have liked to have told them NO,or words to that effect, when they asked if he was still available, but he did like his job, and was glad to be working again. It will not be fulltime though, but that really suits us.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Before, I write about my latest diagnosis......I want to shout from the rooftops. <em>Allan has been reinstated in his old job!!</em></span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The Company 'outsourced' his position as Purchasing Officer, but got into a bit of a 'mess', At the time he was the only one made redundant, his friends and fellow work colleagues were up in arms. Anyhow, to cut a long story short, the 'other' Company appear to have messed up, and Allan has been asked if he wanted his old position back...did he?. But, at first it may be less hours than before. It has been an awful year, with him losing his job last Christmas, and my health worsened from April.</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">..........and here he is, my Soulmate,<span style="font-size: x-small;">(not the best of pictures but appropiate)</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I had an appointment Christmas Eve with a new Consultant,new Dept. Wasn't keen on him, everytime I quoted what my regular Consultant had told me and the reason they were referring me to him....he kept saying that is not why you are here. Mainly I was there because of my voice changes, and other problems. I was sent the copy of the letter that they had sent to him! He decided there and then to organise a Laryngoscopy ( I thought he would have a chat, and tell me what they intended) asked me to follow him, after asking the Nurse to set it up. On the corridor, I being nervous, asked if they did some sort of <em>sedation</em> on the throat beforehand (as I had read) He wasn't well pleased, said 'I had better come back into his office' The next minute he shot something up both nostrils, and down my throat, muttering that most people find that worse than the actual examination. there was no discussing <em>it</em>! So off we went again,and he mentioned that he would have a look at my throat.Allan always goes in with me, but we had bumped into someone we knew, and I told him to have a chat, thinking we would be sat for ages as usual, but I was called in, and he hadn't realised, until it was all over... The camera was put up my nostril and down my throat, not as bad as I first thought....but having bad experiences with<em> swallowing</em> previous cameras. He printed out a colour picture of my throat, do you remember the first instant cameras?He mellowed a little by this time, and showed me that they had found a 'growth' on my Soft Palate, and one on the Vocal cords. they are going to remove the one on the soft palate, and do a biopsy on the vocal cords. I don't know how serious the outcome will be, and I'm really <em>frightened</em>, not managing to get to sleep until around 4.00am on most nights.</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">So glad to see the back of this one, and hope for a better one for everyone.This will go down as one of my worst ever, but know that I am not alone...... 'with problems'</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-size: large;">Aileen....X</span>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-8982086013315583482010-12-09T22:43:00.010+00:002010-12-10T23:27:20.919+00:00<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/TQIKrMP1w0I/AAAAAAAAAt8/PEqpHeVPTmU/s1600/angelica.gif"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 121px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 165px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5549009428012188482" border="0" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/TQIKrMP1w0I/AAAAAAAAAt8/PEqpHeVPTmU/s320/angelica.gif" /></a><br /><div><span style="color:#6600cc;">Hello! to my Blog Friends...an update as promised. I've delayed writing.....and on a good day, try to forget what is happening 'healthwise'</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Just to recap......</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">I have been going to the Oralmaxillofacial Clinic since September 2007, after problems with Ulcers in the Throat and Mouth since January 2006 and 12 nosebleeeds (one lasting 7hrs)also recurring Conjunctivitis. Finally diagnosed with Cicatricial Pemphigoid , basically a 'Compromised Immune System'......for which there isn't a cure. I'd got <em>used</em> <em>to</em> having a sore throat/mouth......but in April 2010, things were changing, and I also have an enlarged lymphnode at the side of my neck. I cannot see this, but <em>they </em>can 'feel' it. As some of you may remember, I went into Hospital in June for Biopsies, and the result of that was 'Cancer in Situ' (stage before Cancer). Arrangements made to be admitted for Laser treatment, first they cancelled, and then you may remember I had a fall in the Garden, so Hospital delayed, and arranged holiday cancelled. Did finally go in Hospital October 12th, and had the Cells Lasered.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Did go to back on 9th November to the Clinic that I attend on a regular basis, used to be every 4 months, but with the 'changes' now go every month. I thought I would receive the results from the Laser treatment, but didn't, and another appointment was made for January. It bothered me that I had to wait all that time, but then got a 'Phone call on the 23rd November, asking if I could attend the next Day? which I did, and saw the Surgeon who had done the Laser treatment.He was happy with the way things had gone. BUT, now was asked how long I'd had the 'problem' with my Voice.....I sound like I've got Laryngitis a lot of the time and have done all the time I've been attending, but sometimes it sounds just normal. I thought they were treating me for all the Mouth/Throat problems,they have just been concentrating on the Mouth/tongue... but I'm now being referred to Ear/Nose/Throat for investigations further down the throat, and I'm really 'worried' is an understatement, totally different Hospital, but they all come under the umbrella of Sheffield Teaching Hospitals, and it is just around the corner. the only (soonest)appointment they can offer me is <em>December 24th</em>, Christmas Eve is my favourite Day of the Holiday. I also have appointments for the main clinic, and another clinic on the 14th December (My Birthday) one in the morning and one in the afternoon. </span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Still having problems with the Hand/Arm that I fell on, and it appears to have 'upset' the Carpel Tunnel..which is quite common, BUT, very painful. After 3 months of pain my own Doctor has reluctantly given me a Cortisone injection in the wrist. It has improved, but Surgery is maybe on the cards for that. I can't cope with that just now. Some better news, I've just had an Eye test at the Opticians, and no change there, same Prescription for the last two years, but only need them for reading and close work.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Allan is still unemployed, after applying for various positions, as it happens he has been available for me, and a great help. We are both hoping for a better 2011. I wish I could just wake up in the morning, and it was not happening to me.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Today, the 10th December (1998)was the date my Son was killed in a Traffic accident, somone crossed the solid white line coming in the opposite direction. and he was killed outright.</span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">His ashes are buried in Penistone churchyard, which is quite a journey from here, but I always go the nearest Weekend to the Anniversary and lay a holly Wreath. The weather has prevented that, which has upset me, but we will go as soon as we can.</span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">*We made our third batch of mince pies yesterday, Allan doing the preparation, and me filling as best I can .........we ate the first two lots, but I'm expecting a couple of visitors today so hope they last. I love them, and could eat them all year.</span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Aileen....X</span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span></div>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-24812223772125682372010-12-03T13:41:00.009+00:002010-12-09T22:40:16.014+00:00Snowed in!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhSL6ZiBqwVH9-F8FAhPfbbgJye9CwuxRFA0ex3VMa5yX0jURzToWwqXfJUoGZxwJ8ASc1dicw3C2nsndv1G2YDsrlbgreqTDQUXYPfz6p0tm7Xev_wGAXCyHDVCoxbyUl_kKRZR0-B0KI/s1600/christmasbear.gif"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 160px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 150px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5546455745838482290" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhSL6ZiBqwVH9-F8FAhPfbbgJye9CwuxRFA0ex3VMa5yX0jURzToWwqXfJUoGZxwJ8ASc1dicw3C2nsndv1G2YDsrlbgreqTDQUXYPfz6p0tm7Xev_wGAXCyHDVCoxbyUl_kKRZR0-B0KI/s320/christmasbear.gif" /></a><br /><br /><div><br /><br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgH9yUTn6zV2ZfNEv4ZYZG8GKb0Z0AsKQjrT1vD4jKP61VrzskfjWFLy15mfzMws2ceFe-sTELTgjqpYF-vjQP-VvRPz-yf6NnqJ09MDaCyXpGi88Tv4p3ucQKc7ZwIl240oyl-6_FpTes/s1600/trees+in+corner.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5546455060445236882" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgH9yUTn6zV2ZfNEv4ZYZG8GKb0Z0AsKQjrT1vD4jKP61VrzskfjWFLy15mfzMws2ceFe-sTELTgjqpYF-vjQP-VvRPz-yf6NnqJ09MDaCyXpGi88Tv4p3ucQKc7ZwIl240oyl-6_FpTes/s320/trees+in+corner.jpg" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1b4q2IVGI1ZnqqixYFCI3tk9mIHYbtME53lbAR1GMkIJqhcEkQk9WMaM-dQypt-IY14OhPAImULZEMqa-Uv1U43EhiMUDuRk-XxyHAv0o6QWEoRvrxnPxDezlTVvewt9AJuUVp6pLoI4/s1600/from+front+door.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5546451843458357186" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1b4q2IVGI1ZnqqixYFCI3tk9mIHYbtME53lbAR1GMkIJqhcEkQk9WMaM-dQypt-IY14OhPAImULZEMqa-Uv1U43EhiMUDuRk-XxyHAv0o6QWEoRvrxnPxDezlTVvewt9AJuUVp6pLoI4/s320/from+front+door.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-xGCWVjTMlC5S1UbBSvJOISSEzvNvOslXPl75jn6qLLe53ohus7PZorspliig7bSUybUSH1vDdJXXMHWvkKYQaHKX5Ogy-Y-_uhYrLkg1s9ZLsgz55JgIbjR7s48FjiZ1MQ2fLmk-Q2o/s1600/back+gate.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5546451248524042658" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-xGCWVjTMlC5S1UbBSvJOISSEzvNvOslXPl75jn6qLLe53ohus7PZorspliig7bSUybUSH1vDdJXXMHWvkKYQaHKX5Ogy-Y-_uhYrLkg1s9ZLsgz55JgIbjR7s48FjiZ1MQ2fLmk-Q2o/s320/back+gate.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /><br /></div><div>This morning at Home, from the Front Door.... coldest November/Dec for a century.</div><div><br /></div><div>I've been meaning to 'Update' for sometime, especially 'Health' news, but will post more later.<br /></div><div>Allan walked here and back home again on Tuesday, normally he can be here in 10 mins, especially good if I 'need' him. But over an hour each way with him walking.......Been on my own , but he is walking here again as I type, and will collect some milk and bread en route.<br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /></div><div>Hope everyone is OK and managing to keep warm</div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div>Aileen...X</div><div><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div></div></div>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-53592523115299708052010-10-31T13:58:00.011+00:002010-10-31T14:50:36.461+00:00Another update!<span style="color:#6600cc;">Just to say.......I've been home for a few days now, and thought I ought to let Friends know</span> <span style="color:#6600cc;">how I am.....</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">The recovery from Laser Surgery (Laser ablation dysplasia of the Orapharynx) took longer to feel <em>comfortable</em>. I was very unwell (sickly, and unable to swallow for a few days) after the Biopsy in June, BUT, this was different than I expected, and it has taken around two weeks to eat normally, but no sickness The Hospital staff were very kind to me, regarding the injuries of the recent fall, and between us it was manageable. Bruising completely gone now, but still a lot of discomfort in Wrist/Hand......will need treatment for this, have to contact my own Doctor soon. </span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">However, I go to hospital for the results of the Laser surgery on the 9th November, and hoping for a good outcome. I still have the 'sore troat' (Pemphigoid) that I've had for over 4 years, and was hoping those 'feelings' would be gone.....but still the same. </span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">I didn't want this 'Blog' to be only about being unwell, but that takes up a lot of my days.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">I do have a <em>life.....</em> and we do go out, and do all the normal things, but at the moment Allan has to help me a lot. He doesn't stay as much now I'm improving, and he has his own home to maintain.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Miserable day weatherwise, and I'm not looking forward to the long dark nights, and shorter days. We had a beautiful Autumn day yesterday, and managed to drive to Bolsover, but staying put today</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Thanks for reading, and I will update soon.....Promise!</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzym3OWSkZvRVAE7hX9aKYf_gUiHCFCpQofzABi_jvO89f8cvbEbNh7B5jgCkUgWR_b4dN_Ha6Vz0V3-N0V7Yz-Ljnv-OGr69oMMOfNuCiZFTrtu5jG8omN_JiRU4xYd5a5Yb2qOyps90/s1600/friendship.png"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 220px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 150px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5534209851957700322" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzym3OWSkZvRVAE7hX9aKYf_gUiHCFCpQofzABi_jvO89f8cvbEbNh7B5jgCkUgWR_b4dN_Ha6Vz0V3-N0V7Yz-Ljnv-OGr69oMMOfNuCiZFTrtu5jG8omN_JiRU4xYd5a5Yb2qOyps90/s320/friendship.png" /></a></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzym3OWSkZvRVAE7hX9aKYf_gUiHCFCpQofzABi_jvO89f8cvbEbNh7B5jgCkUgWR_b4dN_Ha6Vz0V3-N0V7Yz-Ljnv-OGr69oMMOfNuCiZFTrtu5jG8omN_JiRU4xYd5a5Yb2qOyps90/s1600/friendship.png"></a></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Aileen....X</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzym3OWSkZvRVAE7hX9aKYf_gUiHCFCpQofzABi_jvO89f8cvbEbNh7B5jgCkUgWR_b4dN_Ha6Vz0V3-N0V7Yz-Ljnv-OGr69oMMOfNuCiZFTrtu5jG8omN_JiRU4xYd5a5Yb2qOyps90/s1600/friendship.png"></a></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzym3OWSkZvRVAE7hX9aKYf_gUiHCFCpQofzABi_jvO89f8cvbEbNh7B5jgCkUgWR_b4dN_Ha6Vz0V3-N0V7Yz-Ljnv-OGr69oMMOfNuCiZFTrtu5jG8omN_JiRU4xYd5a5Yb2qOyps90/s1600/friendship.png"></a>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-76839652384076574542010-10-10T20:26:00.007+01:002010-10-10T21:14:44.956+01:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvz3SFu1YqvowtZRFHni0K4yw4I7RQM-9_omFXT-1GnQm2VeEn0wHrcS4PL5EGq1XUnVP6bcNF44QQb7RssTROqzf2fcjND7eyNpG8RUm84ZvBaYmMy-AnVU3hgTKLYPNbLOvpWhkWpQQ/s1600/surgery.bmp"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 120px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 70px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5526501504627265714" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvz3SFu1YqvowtZRFHni0K4yw4I7RQM-9_omFXT-1GnQm2VeEn0wHrcS4PL5EGq1XUnVP6bcNF44QQb7RssTROqzf2fcjND7eyNpG8RUm84ZvBaYmMy-AnVU3hgTKLYPNbLOvpWhkWpQQ/s320/surgery.bmp" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Just a brief update.....finally going in for Laser Throat surgery on the 12th October.Very nervous, but after recent cancellations, need to get this over with.</span><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYrqwS3cL-LdxBafPo2TS4tuqUC8kxTEI3cEiNDZHRne-Q5lYkP2yLOCtaLSBcX-bfnDvA4Qrv4XtyNh3xuhFdgdw4scm52MfkujMzrN0po10SboD4GFhRk5EJYRvyPi6erqelPiYinlY/s1600/anemones.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 241px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5526511699491777586" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYrqwS3cL-LdxBafPo2TS4tuqUC8kxTEI3cEiNDZHRne-Q5lYkP2yLOCtaLSBcX-bfnDvA4Qrv4XtyNh3xuhFdgdw4scm52MfkujMzrN0po10SboD4GFhRk5EJYRvyPi6erqelPiYinlY/s320/anemones.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">As stated in my previous post, the date has been changed several times due to different circumstances.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">It has been very difficult after my fall, unable to do much for myself.....Allan is now very experienced in shampooing, and blowdrying my hair etc. and I've slowly become a lady of leisure, unable to cook or wash up afterwards. Luckily Allan is a capable chef.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Now managing a little better with the 'painful' hand, but after 3 weeks unable to sleep, burning/tingling sensation. I can now move my fingers a little. Had to see my own Dr at the end of last week, and she feels it is the 'Carpel tunnel'.....which I had sort of diagnosed myself, via the internet, as I fell directly on the hand, she may give me a Cortisone injection in a couple of weeks, or refer me for Surgery. I've been given Amitriptyline, just for the sleep problem, but only had one decent night so far!</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Anyhow, I've accepted the new date for Throat surgery, and hope to be able to cope with it all. The bruising of the hand/arm is almost gone, but still very sore.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Sorry not to write more, but still typing with the left hand, and very tiring. How we take 'being able' so for granted. </span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">This has certainly been a year to remember, and Allan is still unemployed. BUT, it has meant he could be here for me.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">All for now</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Aileen....X</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-1125547660565939192010-09-24T15:24:00.006+01:002010-09-24T15:56:17.841+01:00Update on previous Post......<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmIsI9VbFjZETh4LRqLWLVMex8emC4_PCCvtL8gB7HwfNzv4_xzbDO-mf-UVUbDsLA-rY5eVfdgCaf7V8nSC-RA0cSjluUm4RuPRiv-sdsjKiUvZ4JoZXxWrjxab7KShYTt1mMn_2P0_s/s1600/arm+....bad.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5520487635267413250" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmIsI9VbFjZETh4LRqLWLVMex8emC4_PCCvtL8gB7HwfNzv4_xzbDO-mf-UVUbDsLA-rY5eVfdgCaf7V8nSC-RA0cSjluUm4RuPRiv-sdsjKiUvZ4JoZXxWrjxab7KShYTt1mMn_2P0_s/s320/arm+....bad.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><div><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/TJy0wCUa-wI/AAAAAAAAAo8/Xuc_Hb-7fz4/s1600/main+hand+pic.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 268px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5520485980598631170" border="0" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/TJy0wCUa-wI/AAAAAAAAAo8/Xuc_Hb-7fz4/s320/main+hand+pic.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi21lwKxk8rp1e4vNLe7c4RfN3gu7grr0m2k2FDPvQ4ooAmnQLrC4sVCC7S7JYFG47fZVXjJpD9_TW8otMJz_rmnI6sYcrBU1Q8AJmiW1GynzEm43urGAz7_cdn5LL_qdtPALOz2q0HWyw/s1600/arm+....bad.jpg"></a><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#0000ff;"><u></u></span></div><div><br /> </div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div></div><br /><div><br /><div><strong><span style="color:#663366;">Just an indication of what life is like just now, this is one week on, so <em>things have improved somewhat </em>visibly.....I couldn't 'unbend' the fingers at all, slight improvement, apart from the thumb, but the pain doesn't go away!</span></strong></div><br /><div><strong><span style="color:#663366;"></span></strong></div><br /><div><strong><span style="color:#663366;">We returned to the fracture clinic on Sunday morning, as advised, and it was a vey nice lady Dr. She confirmed that the wrist is not fractured, but they had some concerns, and she showed me the hand Xrays. It was felt that I had a problem, probably from a previous fall.....gaps between the bones. She wanted to refer me to a Surgeon in a couple of weeks time. I explained all that was going on in my life with health just now, so it was agreed to wait for now.</span></strong></div><br /><div><strong><span style="color:#663366;"></span></strong></div><br /><div><strong><span style="color:#663366;">I've had to cancel my going into hospital for Laser treatment on my Throat on the 28th now, and waiting for a call to offer me another date.I couldn't possibly cope in this condition.I was offered August 17, and they cancelled 4 days before. Offered 14th September, I declined as we were going away,( We should have been on holiday this week, and lost almost £400), then offered the 28th...now cancelled You don't realise ,,how debilitating it is to only have your left hand, especially if you are right handed as I am. I have trouble with dresssing/undresssing,eating etc. Allan is having to do everything for me. Can't even brush my Hair, and the pain goes on and on. </span></strong></div><em><span style="color:#663366;"></span></em></div><br /><div><br /><div></div><br /><div><strong><span style="color:#663366;">This is brief, as I can only type with one finger on left hand, and it takes forever.</span></strong></div><strong><span style="color:#663366;"></span></strong></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div><strong><span style="color:#663366;">Thanks for reading, and commenting.</span></strong></div><br /><div><strong><span style="color:#663366;"></span></strong></div><br /><div><strong><span style="color:#663366;"></span></strong></div><br /><div><strong><span style="color:#663366;">Aileen....X</span></strong></div><br /><div><strong><span style="color:#663366;"></span></strong></div><br /><div><strong><span style="color:#663366;"></span></strong></div><br /><div><strong><span style="color:#663366;"></span></strong></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div><span style="color:#663366;"></span></div><br /><div><br /><br /></div><br /><div></div>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-15626668135124762732010-09-18T16:13:00.008+01:002010-09-19T17:19:11.743+01:00Things can only get better....or can they?<span style="color:#6600cc;">Where to start?</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">This posting will be difficult, as I am typing with one finger, on my left hand. Being right handed, it is quite difficult!</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">I've intended to update for a while now, but life (health) got in the way.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">We should have been on holiday from today, going down near Kent for a week, prior to my Laser Surgery for Cancer in situ, in my Throat.</span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">(Now to be the 28th September)</span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Friends who have followed my very rare Postings, will probably remember my health hasn't been good....</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Just to bring things upto date......briefly, as I don't know how long this will take.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">After having Throat problems, along with other complications for over 4yrs. I had a Biopsy in June, and it was found to be the stage before Cancer. Was promised I would be in Surgery within the month. also they found a tooth that needed attention, so that was now going to be done at the same time. I wont go in to the Dental saga, but that was taken out at the Dental Hospital 3 weeks ago. I was due to go in for the Laser surgery on the 17th of August, so everything was .moving along before our Holidays.A phone call from the Hospital 4 days before, cancelled the August date, and could I now go in on the 14th September? I felt this not possible, because of going away on the 18th.....now given a date 28th September. We had also cancelled our Holiday for May,moving it to September, thinking things would be 'sorted'.we rented the same Cottage, but as we changed the date, the price was more expensive. Unfortunately, we had cancellation Insurance for the previous Booking, but we did not realise at the time, the Insurance was not carried on to the new Booking.......therefore, we have lost the amount paid, and a pretty little Cottage is sitting empty, as I type. We have tried to book this Cottage for the last three years, and this was the first time we had made it! Somehow, not meant to be.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">are you keeping up so far?</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Two days ago, getting ready for travelling today ( 18th) I was almost packed, but regrettably now......I had a last tidy up in the Garden, and watered some new plantings, as I 'unhooked' the Garden hose, I lost my balance and fell backwards....but landed on my right Hand, resulting in a large swelling on my wrist, and elbow, and much bruising. I lay there hoping someone would hear me but nobody around....eventually pulled myself up, got in the House, and 'phoned Allan. didnt know at the time I had also cut my toe, so there were blood spots on a pale green carpet! least of my worries at the time.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">We went to A & E, about 8 miles away, after numerous X-Rays, it was decided I needed to go to the Fracture clinic, and couldn't be seen until Sunday morning....I have a splint on at the moment,and as you can imagine, being right handed...everything is difficult. Allan is very supportive, as I can't even take the top of the milk! It has been an 'Annus Horribilis' for us. You may remember that Allan was made Redundant at Christmas, and as yet no job on the horizon.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">We really needed this Holiday, but doesn't look like we will get away now. We tried to think who could go in our place ( a free Holiday for someone) but most of our Friends were either on holday, or otherwise occupied.....</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">......to be continued</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Thanks for taking the time to read. </span><br /><br /><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjFqNb54qj3_xCZbB8pt1NUin4mot2Pvgof9-YzQ-jJBWtgs553eFhtsqdxVYk8Ea9caJOez6znq98lu_W8hMNSXhcK76Nr0F7WG4R7Gtc_kGu_5sjIbJ9_-FdE4vxqbFr4Mz9klnxxbXY/s1600/aileensimpleted.gif"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 151px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 179px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5518293919878692434" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjFqNb54qj3_xCZbB8pt1NUin4mot2Pvgof9-YzQ-jJBWtgs553eFhtsqdxVYk8Ea9caJOez6znq98lu_W8hMNSXhcK76Nr0F7WG4R7Gtc_kGu_5sjIbJ9_-FdE4vxqbFr4Mz9klnxxbXY/s320/aileensimpleted.gif" /></a><br /></p><p></p><p><br /><br /></p><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-7308534417278564842010-07-18T15:21:00.009+01:002010-07-18T18:14:08.625+01:00Another update<span style="color:#993399;">Sorry for lack of information re my recent Biopsies</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Have tried to 'write' but things are <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">difficult</span> just now......and the results not what I wanted to hear. </span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">I did go into Hospital on the 8<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">th</span> June, had to be there for 7.00am, and I was first to Theatre. I was told I would be fifth, so with the change, had to rush to get into Gown etc....then off to theatre. I was unusually calm, thinking this is going to clear the problems, and give me some relief. When I came round I had a very sore Throat/Tongue, and stitches in the Throat. The Consultant came to the Ward in the Evening, and stated that '<em>they hadn't removed any <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Tumours</span>'</em> everything else he said after that just washed over me. I was home the next day, and after the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Anaesthetic</span> wore off, was really unwell. Was very sick, and it even hurt to swallow Water.Had to do a lot of this, because of various Medication including Diabetes. My own surgery is considering putting me on Insulin, but waiting until I 'get over this' first I lost 11lbs in 6 days, not a good way to lose it though! Allan and I communicated by Mobile phone, from Bedroom to Living room, me ringing and ringing off, as I could barely speak. My voice hasn't come back fully as yet.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">What kept me going was the thought that it's over, and they didn't find anything untoward. I've had this sore throat plus all the other conditions associated with Pemphigoid for over 4yrs, and attended Hospital since September 2007.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Anyhow, I went for 'results' on the 13th July,also have to go to collect Prescription. My own Dr will not prescribe this medication, as it is very specialised, and <em>expensive.</em></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">I had two appointments, the usual clinic '<em>upstairs'</em>, and then on to see the Consultant Surgeon <em>'downstairs'. </em></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">We were called in to a different room than usual, and the procedure wasn't the same, and no examination at this point.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">I was told that I had Epithelial Dysplasia, mild in some areas of tongue etc, moderate in others but severe at the back of the Throat. The severe part of it is <em>Cancer in situ. </em>I do not have malignant Cancer, but that is the next stage. I am to have Laser surgery,don't have a choice, and it should be done in a couple of weeks time.Also, I will have to go to Clinic every month thereafter, and for the rest of my life. We then were ushered downstairs, and I jumped the queue, as I was next to be called in, and saw yet another Consultant as mine was on Holiday. Things were explained to me, and he asked me to promise not to 'look things up' but I didn't agree to that.....</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">I also have another problem tooth, have tried to see my Dentist recently, go tomorrow 19th. But, if it is still intact when I go into Hospital, they will remove it while I am asleep.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Sorry for the gloomy entry, but I am so down just now......and have put off writing.</span><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Hope it's not TMI</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_w5ih4dQJMpKNYSufbXxnR0ItMa2mY8G8Udrk_IHo1CzUucf3LjsSRaGK14-UTp7_vPudfu3N11zgcsKvtONPdevg60rUFvcuGQ2kdZpEc2ANf6JqWz3txpcKbiu_GmOCDNOa_IY2LeA/s1600/aileensimpleted.gif"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 151px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 179px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5495251436323349026" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_w5ih4dQJMpKNYSufbXxnR0ItMa2mY8G8Udrk_IHo1CzUucf3LjsSRaGK14-UTp7_vPudfu3N11zgcsKvtONPdevg60rUFvcuGQ2kdZpEc2ANf6JqWz3txpcKbiu_GmOCDNOa_IY2LeA/s320/aileensimpleted.gif" /></a>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-35392519922136311252010-06-07T14:38:00.003+01:002010-06-07T17:35:07.187+01:00Health update<span style="color:#6600cc;">Just a brief update, as I'm going in Hospital tomorrow (8th). I am having a Panendoscopy (screening for Throat Cancer). We have to be there for 7.00am, and I will be put to sleep... If all goes well, I should be home in the Day, but have to rest for 24hrs afterwards. So Allan will stay with me, although he only lives around 15mins away. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">I have had this condition for a long time, and a sore throat for over 4yrs. We are hoping for a better diagnosis, and hopefully rule IT out. I do attend two Hospitals on a regular basis, also Diabetic Clinic every 4 months. With Cicatricial Pemphigoid. the Cictaricial part of it is the 'scarring' in the eyes. Outwardly I look quite '<em>normal', </em>but do have some days which are not quite so good. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Thank you for your recent comments and concerns, and I will update again soon.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirPWkFsE-dexD3mxBD0TiMoostlHrDsqtGnZa5oxuQ9nXSjGzEnpnaXOCtGjZhguRpS7QAtOX0HQMAj1xt0sI2yYAooo230g57pROOOOMrhrpnvdSbvjK3c0B1qm7rXX-0ck_p2-V3ko0/s1600/aileensimpleted.gif"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 151px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 179px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5480025882538962146" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirPWkFsE-dexD3mxBD0TiMoostlHrDsqtGnZa5oxuQ9nXSjGzEnpnaXOCtGjZhguRpS7QAtOX0HQMAj1xt0sI2yYAooo230g57pROOOOMrhrpnvdSbvjK3c0B1qm7rXX-0ck_p2-V3ko0/s320/aileensimpleted.gif" /></a></span>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-49901547637193036352010-05-11T11:36:00.009+01:002010-05-11T22:25:29.424+01:00A worrying time<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhdNixNsQO6st8ydEoTNlh4QGtrGfBRMscmJDcjLcLJH7hhKJ0896vTekty-HhNqJ3njdmBaNEi7ALtIwjg8e2uaBjaL71kbiHXmSBD3c0HEfIO9gc2O-9YkdMtl43d8ztbq-DpNK987fs/s1600/A-Special-Pleader-Charles-Burton-Barber-101499.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5469959737043289842" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhdNixNsQO6st8ydEoTNlh4QGtrGfBRMscmJDcjLcLJH7hhKJ0896vTekty-HhNqJ3njdmBaNEi7ALtIwjg8e2uaBjaL71kbiHXmSBD3c0HEfIO9gc2O-9YkdMtl43d8ztbq-DpNK987fs/s320/A-Special-Pleader-Charles-Burton-Barber-101499.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Hello! I've tried to write an entry so many times this year, but trying to put down words has been difficult......<br /><br /><br /><br />My last entry was 'miserable', on my way to having my two front teeth removed because of an Abscess. I received 'comments' and emails wishing me well, I was very frightened, but the Surgery went well, and I continued with Medical appointments, attending two Hospitals, one for Eyes, and also the Oral Maxillofacial every 4 months. I also have to visit my own Dentist every 3 months. As I've tried to explain before, My condition is a compromised Immune System, this along with Diabetes, takes it's toll. Outwardly, no one is the wiser, but I get very tired, and quite uncomfortable a lot of the time.<br /><br /><br /><br />Allan was made Reduntant at the end of 2009, after 23yrs with the same Company, that is a Story in itself! However, although it helps me with appointment etc. and more time together, it has knocked him for six. He is on a course today, so that is my 'excuse' for doing some practical things, and thought also of bringing things up to date.<br /><br /><br /><br />I attended the usual Clinic for my mouth in April, it was a new to me Dr, and after examining my throat. she said 'your throat shouldn't bleed like that'......also a tender lump in my Neck at one side. She called for another opinion, and <em>they</em> called for another opinion, then they huddled together in conversation. I was told I had to attend next morning at 9.00am to see a Consultant Surgeon. As Allan isn't working, he could again take me, and it is a good hour journey. while Allan was parking the Car, I was called in -on my own. The first words uttered were 'The People upstairs think your Pemphigoid may have turned to Cancer' after that most things he said just went over my head. He examined my throat, and said he wanted me to come in to Hospital, for a Biopsy, and I would be put to sleep. Meanwhile, by this time Allan had joined me, and we were sent for Ultrasound scan, Chest Xray,Head and Neck Xray, Blood etc.....<br /><br /><br /><br />Now, comes the better 'option' when I was called back in ,after the Ultrasound scan. they had found an Abscess under an end tooth on the right hand side.....this is where the supposed 'lump' is, and felt if that is causing the lymph node to swell, hence further infection to my throat etc. So the tooth has to come out, and they would write to my Dentist, as I requested my own Dentist.....taking 3/4days, but I'm still having a Panendoscopy at the Hospital......think an overnight stay. not sure, but dreading it!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />I rang my Dentist 3 times to see if they had heard anything, after 4 weeks of waiting I rang the Clinic, and spoke to the Consultants Secretary, after holding on, they found a letter had been written on the 30th April, but not signed or sent out! It was decided there and then, to Fax it to my Dr and Dentist, and I was asked if I would like a copy, I asked if they could also Fax to me, and I have a two page letter about myself, here by my side as I type. saying this 'Lady' has a history of many months/years of a sore throat. .....just over 4yrs actually. I was a Telephonist all my working life, so speech has always been very important in my life......<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Change of subject, isn't it cold? we have a lovely sunny day, and the washing is drying, but I have the Central Heating on.<br /><br />We should have gone to Kent on Holiday on the 8th May, but have cancelled, and booked the same cottage for September, hoping for better days.<br /><br />It's Allan's Birthday on Friday, and he says we are having a 'Day off' and going to Buxton for the Day. There is a place we like to go for an Italian meal, and the chef is <em>Italian</em>, so the Lasagne is great. I struggle with eating sometimes,but will give it a damn good try.<br /><br /><br /><br />I don't Pray, but always ASK whoever is in charge, to look out for me, and of course others in need.<br /><br /><br /><br />Must go and get showered etc now, as I have a Drs appointment at 4.00pm, so will say 'Bye for now, and hope for better news soon.<br /></span><br /><br /><br /><em></em><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirJ7WnPB8JvpaKzG1_YdI66TgxbTqeHR8VgywyAgodSBPsl6PVEQfjqTQ1iHD4kffbATGW_Pw09qzj6FhR_2X9gHyaXZDWa2PMSxlCZuqj777d6SZi5yKIAiNxbyAHUe4pSLNEz5RaueY/s1600/aileensimpleted.gif"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 151px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 179px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5469959972680200690" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirJ7WnPB8JvpaKzG1_YdI66TgxbTqeHR8VgywyAgodSBPsl6PVEQfjqTQ1iHD4kffbATGW_Pw09qzj6FhR_2X9gHyaXZDWa2PMSxlCZuqj777d6SZi5yKIAiNxbyAHUe4pSLNEz5RaueY/s320/aileensimpleted.gif" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirJ7WnPB8JvpaKzG1_YdI66TgxbTqeHR8VgywyAgodSBPsl6PVEQfjqTQ1iHD4kffbATGW_Pw09qzj6FhR_2X9gHyaXZDWa2PMSxlCZuqj777d6SZi5yKIAiNxbyAHUe4pSLNEz5RaueY/s1600/aileensimpleted.gif"></a>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-11159196993887002172010-02-07T22:47:00.010+00:002010-04-02T23:59:47.095+01:00Not a lot of people know that!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyCo7FGmMxchDGs2OelZREG6h5rKOrh6K_x-a3FyqpkqRL8PLV_W2eBXYpQfzKAWxAurVRqbBBNOBOux_JVH0T0gyoGKyybxNlkS3Ac6zCw0UzyICpTTq3DqLnf_op8S48w1mcwoebQnk/s1600-h/aileen+by+D.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 252px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5435650786061559746" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyCo7FGmMxchDGs2OelZREG6h5rKOrh6K_x-a3FyqpkqRL8PLV_W2eBXYpQfzKAWxAurVRqbBBNOBOux_JVH0T0gyoGKyybxNlkS3Ac6zCw0UzyICpTTq3DqLnf_op8S48w1mcwoebQnk/s320/aileen+by+D.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Well, where to start. I'm not around so much these days, and only rarely comment. I joined AOL Journals on 18th November 2005....(so would have been 4yrs) However I fell down a flight of stairs at home on the 25th, one week later, my house is on three levels. Struggled with so many things at that time. Have had Diabetes since 2001, and fellow sufferers will know the problems. Started with a sore throat in January 2006,ulcers in the mouth, nosebleeds (one lasting 7hrs and was admitted to Hospital),repeated Conjunctivitis, and ulcers in the Vulva. It took until September 2007, and an Eye operation, to diagnose the 'problem' Cicatricial Pemphigoid (the cicatrical part of it is in the eyes.) It is a rare condition....1 in 1.million. You don't die from it, but can from the complications. I visit 2 hospitals on a regular basis, and treated with tablets that are given to transplant patients. It is my own Immune System that is the problem. As we all transferred to Blogger, I hoped I may hear from someone with the condition. It has been an eventful 4yrs, and I've coped with Allan's help. Outwardly, most of the time I look reasonable, but somedays it takes it's toll. I have a problem in my mouth at the moment, a lump started on my Gum above a front tooth, my own Dentist gave me Antibiotics, saw the Dental hospital in January, was given another course of the same Antibiotics for 7 days, no change, now had two Xrays, and they are removing my two Front teeth on Wednesday 10th February.They will be placed on a Bridge, and placed immediately... no one will be aware, <em>but I will, </em>and absolutely dreading it! If the lump remains they are going to do a Biopsy at a later date.the teeth aren't <em>bad</em>, it is because of bone loss.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Allan was made Redundant at Christmas, and we have had that to cope with, but he doesn't complain <em>much</em>. I'm Retired anyhow, but I wouldn't be able to hold a job down, as you never know what the Day will bring.</span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">If anyone is still reading, I never felt quite at Home with Journals, and less so with Blogger. but have made one or two Friends.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">I'm not good at 'baring all',and can't write about everything that happens in my life, too much going on, and not all bad, but tonight I felt I needed to explain somethings...don't even know </span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">why.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Something happened on AOL Journals, that threw me, and made me not want to participate., hence the long gap between posts, along with the ill health.....Someone, who wil be nameless,(American) wrote to me out of the blue, always commented, emailed, and even wrote me a Poem, found her a bit 'wacky' at times. Never mentioned Journaling in her own right........then found ,purely by accident, that she had kept a Journal for around 4 months. I'm sorry but that made me feel 'insecure' about 'cyberfriends'. she had quite a few followers, and came across as a really nice person, but she failed miserably in my eyes, or is it just me?</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">*Shows how rusty I am....The Signature should be at the botttom!</span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Aileen...X</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyCo7FGmMxchDGs2OelZREG6h5rKOrh6K_x-a3FyqpkqRL8PLV_W2eBXYpQfzKAWxAurVRqbBBNOBOux_JVH0T0gyoGKyybxNlkS3Ac6zCw0UzyICpTTq3DqLnf_op8S48w1mcwoebQnk/s1600-h/aileen+by+D.jpg"></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyCo7FGmMxchDGs2OelZREG6h5rKOrh6K_x-a3FyqpkqRL8PLV_W2eBXYpQfzKAWxAurVRqbBBNOBOux_JVH0T0gyoGKyybxNlkS3Ac6zCw0UzyICpTTq3DqLnf_op8S48w1mcwoebQnk/s1600-h/aileen+by+D.jpg"></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-79949412591763215462010-01-02T21:56:00.038+00:002010-01-05T16:20:05.849+00:00A New Year<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/S0NfQ-TxHKI/AAAAAAAAAeU/LSpOwKmn7n0/s1600-h/catap.gif"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 254px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5423283121492663458" border="0" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/S0NfQ-TxHKI/AAAAAAAAAeU/LSpOwKmn7n0/s320/catap.gif" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /></div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/S0NmVKSvIiI/AAAAAAAAAec/0BfRYfXuE9k/s1600-h/hello.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 198px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5423290890010436130" border="0" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/S0NmVKSvIiI/AAAAAAAAAec/0BfRYfXuE9k/s320/hello.jpg" /></a><br /></div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div><span style="color:#6600cc;">Have meant to 'update' for sometime, but 2009 has not been a good year......</span></div><br /><br /><br /><div><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">The final blow came, as Allan was made Redundant from his job, on the 23rd December, as they broke up for the Christmas Holidays. He is due to finish on 29th January, unless there is a 'turn around'</span><br /><br /></div><br /><br /><br /><div><span style="color:#6600cc;">I still battle with my Immune System disorder, I attend two hospitals on a regular basis, Opthalmology, and Maxillofacial, also have 3 monthly checks at my own Dentist. This along with my Diabetes, takes it's toll. Outwardly I look fine <em>most days....</em>and people remark 'how well I'm doing' but as it is such a rare condition (1 in 1 million) I'm the unlucky <em>one</em> I had hoped through blogger I would 'meet' others with the same condition. Read recently that long term stress could be a factor. </span><br /><br /></div><span style="color:#6600cc;">Had both the Flu and Swine Flu jabs just before Christmas, but had to cancel 8th December Hospital appointment because of being unwell.</span> <span style="color:#6600cc;">Now go on January 12th.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Allan and I will have been together 22yrs in March, but live seperately, which suits us, only a ten minute drive. Saying that he has been here over Christmas, but went home last night. I'm Home alone today, as we were meant to have a Turkey dinner tonight,cooked by Allan ( we have 3 to use) with his Parents, but that has been called off because of the steady fall of Snow for most of the Day. It is pre arranged for Tomorrow, now becoming Sunday Lunch. But we have just spoken on the 'Phone, and it may not happen, because of the Roads. So we have around 10 pounds of Turkey to eat between us .Our snow had almost cleared on the Roads and Footpaths, but still remaining on the Country Roads. His Parents came here Christmas Eve, as they do each year, but Allan had to fetch them, and take them home because of the Icy conditions.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">We managed a walk in the Park on Christmas Day, and had our meal in the evening, as we often do....just us. We only met four other people in the Park, it was so bitterley cold, and the Ducks and Geese were struggling to find food, but they ask you not to feed them Bread, as they live on Grass, algea etc ......</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_t5TJnLf1Io3fh5WzsYxJRKXyfTYjK-ERhEunkAqBVITEDGWVAElEWS64zKOQ8VX2h0kOidQEr1xr8xaG-nLqgR2IahR_ut4zXTifZomChOVMs7sC5mPd_h0XRIsW4hrjdiSwGIFrD_k/s1600-h/aileensimpleted.gif"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 151px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 179px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5422291329553411378" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_t5TJnLf1Io3fh5WzsYxJRKXyfTYjK-ERhEunkAqBVITEDGWVAElEWS64zKOQ8VX2h0kOidQEr1xr8xaG-nLqgR2IahR_ut4zXTifZomChOVMs7sC5mPd_h0XRIsW4hrjdiSwGIFrD_k/s320/aileensimpleted.gif" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">HAPPY NEW YEAR...... a little late</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-8859193809786741512009-02-01T12:00:00.000+00:002009-02-01T13:58:49.622+00:00Where did January go?<div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVHfTY6PzWIo6WDKTGFtGqWp4wFSRPOoiQgY51F0ofk1_UkBJfiO0Fw0-NqEzyeFM52Kb-K7TWOsafA3qFwM29gOsMoeP1cpw8-DSpGOakCeigVawHPnX9N3w2EsXO2jyw67G4A5sU4sA/s1600-h/Ds+Designs+Hello+My+Friend+Hello+aileen.bmp"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5297799435463745394" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 304px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVHfTY6PzWIo6WDKTGFtGqWp4wFSRPOoiQgY51F0ofk1_UkBJfiO0Fw0-NqEzyeFM52Kb-K7TWOsafA3qFwM29gOsMoeP1cpw8-DSpGOakCeigVawHPnX9N3w2EsXO2jyw67G4A5sU4sA/s320/Ds+Designs+Hello+My+Friend+Hello+aileen.bmp" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Well, thought it time i put in appearance!</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">In my last Entry, I tried to update, and explain my absence.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Sad to say, things didn't improve </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">I almost 'missed' Christmas and New Year....after speaking to my Surgery several times, and my medication changed four times. Was asked to attend Hospital on the 5th January. I was found to have an infection of the Skin. The cream I was given worked, but left me feeling very tired and weak. Sleep had been almost impossible. I have cancelled 5 medical appointments since the middle of November. Thought things were almost back on track, and I have six appointments during February. I'm due to see the Eye Consultant on the 3rd, and again will not be able to make it.......as I have been unwell for the last week, continual headaches, nausea etc. A rash had developed on the top of my Breast, and down the side, and a patch almost under my Arm. I went online trying to 'diagnose' myself. The Internet is a brilliant tool, but you can frighten yourself to death....<em> which I </em>did. Allan took me to the Walk In Centre at the Hospital yesterday as they opened. Now it appears I have 'Shingles'. I explained my health condition to the male Dr, and as usual he had never heard of it (CICATRICIAL PEMPHIGOID). He did say <em>he would have some reading up to do. </em>I have explained this before, but for any new readers. My IMMUNE SYSTEM doesn't work, and my Body 'attacks itself'. I'm given Immunsuppresents, which results in being prone to any Infections around. I don't think you 'catch' Shingles. Just a result of being very run down etc.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Anyhow, I'm feeling pretty miserable this morning, and waiting for the 5 a day tablets to 'kick in'.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Most days I look fine outwardly, just very uncomfortable, and the Rash is out of sight. </span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">I thought i would make an 'Entry' as Allan has gone walking in Derbyshire in the early hours. He was hoping to find some Snow. Actually, it has just started here with a few flakes. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">He's' offered to take me to Waitrose later (my favourite Food Shop) but I think I'm staying put for today...But we will have our evening meal together,<em> and he's offered to cook,</em> but we usually do it together.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">We did go over to my Friend Tracey a couple of weeks ago, and she is so much better now. She is waiting to decide whether she wants Breast reconstruction, after her Mastectomy last Summer. She lives just beyond Holmfirth, I'm sure many of you are fans of 'Last of the Summer Wine'..although we seem to be losing the Characters, and most recently Kathy Staff.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">We usually call at 'Compo's' on the way back, wonderful Fish and chips!</span><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEho1Z48wCR1xV_a-9JSc8Z_oK1uww7jSVtIi8TpIaUUUccondpPrKBFvgyEDztEtrJs9lWjXYedInyympGWgAwTJweEiLOMrLmSESOxBg4970kyLByAMkmbgbNu5PT32l8atc2mNvtG4gQ/s1600-h/IMAG0064.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5297823362419072034" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 239px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEho1Z48wCR1xV_a-9JSc8Z_oK1uww7jSVtIi8TpIaUUUccondpPrKBFvgyEDztEtrJs9lWjXYedInyympGWgAwTJweEiLOMrLmSESOxBg4970kyLByAMkmbgbNu5PT32l8atc2mNvtG4gQ/s320/IMAG0064.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhabAmNhJTy5jb4rSlnuXfo_X2U0hpnriXGgnwE-D09FfWubWwwkDI889uwE1NZMZozl0itpNlltBYwiSDYHGFUSnQd6OnqQNl3B-BeMXuESQ5FLMKWwyeKI4Gj53SXtSVZFigsqI_OAcA/s1600-h/IMAG0111.JPG"></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#993399;">Al</span>so you may remember the Lady who does my Feet had Lung Cancer. Sad to say, although she has never let me down....they have now told her it is <em>terminal. </em>She comes here every six weeks, and has been coming for 10 yrs now. she has booked me in again for March, I regard her as a Friend, and would hope they have got it wrong. She never complains, or talks about her problems, unless I ask...which of course I do.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Must go now, and have some lunch....hope to 'speak' to you all soon.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#993399;">Speaking of lunch, came across this Butchers shop in Rothbury on our last holiday in the A</span><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#993399;">utum</span> </div><div><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYWongS_SXYaGWxPbR3Ttlb14tAI2OvT2GplF15ENwK-FQvXlEQ4z51GE1fQXWh1wEqzisFGgCZ79E-ESfEm_q2wUVkNea7RnN8VBXnn0Z6CECWTcHvnv5-r8ktzAZh-dpAKsSZNBbUGA/s1600-h/IMAG0111.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5297827549662235090" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 239px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYWongS_SXYaGWxPbR3Ttlb14tAI2OvT2GplF15ENwK-FQvXlEQ4z51GE1fQXWh1wEqzisFGgCZ79E-ESfEm_q2wUVkNea7RnN8VBXnn0Z6CECWTcHvnv5-r8ktzAZh-dpAKsSZNBbUGA/s320/IMAG0111.JPG" border="0" /></a></div><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYWongS_SXYaGWxPbR3Ttlb14tAI2OvT2GplF15ENwK-FQvXlEQ4z51GE1fQXWh1wEqzisFGgCZ79E-ESfEm_q2wUVkNea7RnN8VBXnn0Z6CECWTcHvnv5-r8ktzAZh-dpAKsSZNBbUGA/s1600-h/IMAG0111.JPG"></a> </div><div><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Appar</span><span style="color:#993399;">ently Charles and Camilla had been there!</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">'Bye for now</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Aileen...X</span><br /><br /><br /></div><span style="color:#993399;"></span>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-19023249460735665412008-12-30T22:16:00.000+00:002009-01-03T13:09:47.579+00:00It's that time ....again<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/SVqxRIGSDBI/AAAAAAAAASQ/3q77u1Crmw8/s1600-h/th_HappyNewYearMiceMartini.gif"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5285732020462423058" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 132px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 160px" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/SVqxRIGSDBI/AAAAAAAAASQ/3q77u1Crmw8/s320/th_HappyNewYearMiceMartini.gif" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#993399;">Well! as we reach the end of another year, thought I should explain my absence, and try to update. My Journal has been very neglected,<em>not that things don't happen ~</em>just haven't had the inclination to write them down. I do visit some of you from time to time, and sometimes even comment!</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWbeUsrnLrxC6HFAAXL4aWLAlfcmFVCTVWtZ96fzRjqGQUM0EYiyBzy3KhVyCkZnnHvSSJqu4xgJk9Z1jFsoieaLSkSybt9u8MvWFyXrdrJMV7r1-9rwuil6xM0ag2-CDMPsq1j4L2hY4/s1600-h/scan0001.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5285722103509683202" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 217px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWbeUsrnLrxC6HFAAXL4aWLAlfcmFVCTVWtZ96fzRjqGQUM0EYiyBzy3KhVyCkZnnHvSSJqu4xgJk9Z1jFsoieaLSkSybt9u8MvWFyXrdrJMV7r1-9rwuil6xM0ag2-CDMPsq1j4L2hY4/s320/scan0001.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#993399;">I dread the dark nights, and the winter chills, and I think it gets to us all at times. I used to love Christmas, and would really get into celebrating after my Birthday on the 14th....but as some of you will remember, my Son Michael was killed in a Car accident on the 10th December, it is now 10yrs, but as the date comes around again.....forgive me, but I love this Picture,and some of you will have seen it before on my previous Journal.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#993399;">I try to keep up for Allan's sake. and he loves the Christmas Holiday....<em>and a couple of weeks off work</em>. But this year I haven't enjoyed much of it. My health hasn't improved, and as there isn't a cure for 'Pemphigoid',in brief my Immune System doesn't work I have some dark days,It is uncomfortable, but outwardly I look fine.Being on so much medication...along with the Diabetes, there are obviously 'side effects'.I've had a 'tingling/itching feeling all over my body for a few weeks now...just thought it would go away.Sleep is very limited, and we all the know the effects of that. Anyhow, I had to phone my Surgery on the morning of Christmas Eve, and Allan picked up a Prescription, was told to contact them if no improvement.I've been <em>so uncomfortable</em>, and I think that is one reason I couldn't get into the Celebrations.I waited until the Surgery opened yesterday, and they saw me straight away.I've now been given Antihistamines, and a Blood test, and may have to attend Hospital.Some of my main medictaion can affect the Liver, and that apparently can cause the 'itch'...I have Blood tests every 4 weeks,because of some of my Medication. I was due for my HAb1c (Diabetic), but that is on hold until mid January.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-HrcCdWNPB1mvLz2FPOzy4PQIkMnukxU6offbUHeCnu544zNXsgy4GZIZVZvkVodPoV8h_FUZHIw_d3hzJfxi9M9ihVqGrS9OG5iNgETi_-nm0GRrZn_qlVzq9uD9Fx7iUoTjpDBC2uw/s1600-h/media.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5285732820349880258" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-HrcCdWNPB1mvLz2FPOzy4PQIkMnukxU6offbUHeCnu544zNXsgy4GZIZVZvkVodPoV8h_FUZHIw_d3hzJfxi9M9ihVqGrS9OG5iNgETi_-nm0GRrZn_qlVzq9uD9Fx7iUoTjpDBC2uw/s320/media.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#993399;">It's not all doom and gloom though (lol) Allan bought a new Car that we both can <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhrTKvmi2zzFRktNQ8az0JKljwfHhoRfhwbQihUU_5KnG423gN5DOyPt3NVoRYr65JakxwPFJXAkZYVo3f_m0Frl1WKh6DW17rBEYCrp-KEmGkeQU1SWDur-49UQu03N6SXHphviqd6Res/s1600-h/IMAG0046.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5285725982632555474" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 239px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhrTKvmi2zzFRktNQ8az0JKljwfHhoRfhwbQihUU_5KnG423gN5DOyPt3NVoRYr65JakxwPFJXAkZYVo3f_m0Frl1WKh6DW17rBEYCrp-KEmGkeQU1SWDur-49UQu03N6SXHphviqd6Res/s320/IMAG0046.JPG" border="0" /></a>drive. I've been learning on and off for some time. He even bought me my own Fiesta Ghia,( pictured here)to encourage me, and I was quite near to Test, but because of my health, gave up for a time, had passed my Theory, which has now expired (2yrs) and I have to sit that again also.<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhrTKvmi2zzFRktNQ8az0JKljwfHhoRfhwbQihUU_5KnG423gN5DOyPt3NVoRYr65JakxwPFJXAkZYVo3f_m0Frl1WKh6DW17rBEYCrp-KEmGkeQU1SWDur-49UQu03N6SXHphviqd6Res/s1600-h/IMAG0046.JPG"></a> We were running two cars,and Allan's Renault Laguna was expensive to run, and I didn't like driving it. So we now run the one Car.I want to sort out my Health problems, then try to gain my independence...driving. I'm hoping to get back with an Instructor....soon!</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#993399;">We had a Holiday in October, and went to Northumberland...the Cottage was owned by a Lord and Lady... no less, and was quite wonderful. A lovely large kitchen with an Aga, which I'd never used one before<span style="font-family:Georgia;color:#000000;">.<span style="color:#993399;"> Daren't even try to post any pictures,or I may lose this altogether,maybe another entry.</span></span></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">I hadn't done any Knitting for about 15yrs, and some of you may remember,baby James Edward was born in June...six weeks premature. I knitted a Baby Jacket, and it turned out quite well! He's quite grown now, at six months., and here he is! Not bad for a premature Baby (lol) Oh! and I bought him the Teddy (Baby's 1st Christmas)</span><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIxbsa2hfkEStQnGZ2l_b26vGBNQCxxb6qx73cUGiaJgY8X8W1SF3rIwP0XHD1o2Q3-qXxpbemqE_3bfpmQg3CfXajxPwYrmv1AfUOV0NbUVH3yYNWz7wi-4rT9OIdytvjyxrSoABGT5k/s1600-h/IMAG0126.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5285741078143070258" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 239px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIxbsa2hfkEStQnGZ2l_b26vGBNQCxxb6qx73cUGiaJgY8X8W1SF3rIwP0XHD1o2Q3-qXxpbemqE_3bfpmQg3CfXajxPwYrmv1AfUOV0NbUVH3yYNWz7wi-4rT9OIdytvjyxrSoABGT5k/s320/IMAG0126.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwBLOR4R__sNfnJd7wZyVSP9mQtz8nRBo1RV9uPj4wwbZ6_88aweAtYMYGJPEb2KBj0Zj7C9Y8XSLfHqASllJoK2x_QfPatmT8EwcS5qXrOgbAC8XdcKwhWua38yow2-Kz3QEQwb_PBL8/s1600-h/IMAG0140.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5285741948412681778" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 239px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwBLOR4R__sNfnJd7wZyVSP9mQtz8nRBo1RV9uPj4wwbZ6_88aweAtYMYGJPEb2KBj0Zj7C9Y8XSLfHqASllJoK2x_QfPatmT8EwcS5qXrOgbAC8XdcKwhWua38yow2-Kz3QEQwb_PBL8/s320/IMAG0140.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#993399;"></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhlAx8xoFxzPjOH_PtCk6NAGXp_aUiYF-E6Dk0mTVn8MZD1JTSeBAVBYs4k6rC2MsBOiRk5Snn83BV60rffwAdh2O5nIOtNyX610CoHkD3bNVwCWKPT6NIVw50kHgrf5JJz4R0XlJFBxlo/s1600-h/IMAG0136.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5285912794748422338" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 239px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhlAx8xoFxzPjOH_PtCk6NAGXp_aUiYF-E6Dk0mTVn8MZD1JTSeBAVBYs4k6rC2MsBOiRk5Snn83BV60rffwAdh2O5nIOtNyX610CoHkD3bNVwCWKPT6NIVw50kHgrf5JJz4R0XlJFBxlo/s320/IMAG0136.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#993399;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiRgVUexKQTdTNzV37EWhzsjMFgPUB9z-dt_LjYyvyI0Fjz46Ciy-ZWLYoRzGXM9D3VqqygjCmddHEDR8265SZ1Hg36Xhsx4VPnYfUpej3zcry7EVcPiCs2XFdCLhVuATdxKB7wiHB5MBg/s1600-h/IMAG0136.JPG"></a></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#993399;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiRgVUexKQTdTNzV37EWhzsjMFgPUB9z-dt_LjYyvyI0Fjz46Ciy-ZWLYoRzGXM9D3VqqygjCmddHEDR8265SZ1Hg36Xhsx4VPnYfUpej3zcry7EVcPiCs2XFdCLhVuATdxKB7wiHB5MBg/s1600-h/IMAG0136.JPG"></a></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#993399;">Oh! Yes and I bought myself a new SOFA in November, and it fits in great with my small Cottage suite...</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#993399;">Almost forgot the main reason I came online tonight!...... To wish everyone a 'Happy and Prosperous New Year'</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">Aileen...X</span>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5036943040611513779.post-18482202578528607072008-12-12T14:28:00.000+00:002008-12-14T22:12:09.176+00:00<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/SUJ1tKz3SvI/AAAAAAAAARk/m5Pb6Vpy-98/s1600-h/IMAG0063.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5278911132088093426" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 239px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_42fG0z1ejic/SUJ1tKz3SvI/AAAAAAAAARk/m5Pb6Vpy-98/s320/IMAG0063.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;">Just saying Hello!</span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;">I've tried to write an Entry, but have been thrown offline 4 times now.....so I'm giving in.</span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;">I haven't been too well for the last two weeks, but have tried to catch up with some of you. I will update, when I have a little more time...and <em>patience.</em></span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;">I think 'Blogger' has a lot more options...BUT, I have to get used to them. Some great looking blogs out there.</span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;">I'm quitting while I'm ahead...before this disappears!</span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;"></span></div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwC-lpqi2p9352hyphenhyphenfPkJ6V4fZdoDXZk_eVGbctZzjJfKDg29b5xpuKnkKjBz1Ph5KJ0LTkcq0AT9SIOEzp0qnMHEwuHm5CkMN1nePy3qXS3HCNZxeQm7NpbUBWOiuCZkkliRisD0UP-mU/s1600-h/Animation1.bmp"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5278913282939002898" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 157px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 160px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwC-lpqi2p9352hyphenhyphenfPkJ6V4fZdoDXZk_eVGbctZzjJfKDg29b5xpuKnkKjBz1Ph5KJ0LTkcq0AT9SIOEzp0qnMHEwuHm5CkMN1nePy3qXS3HCNZxeQm7NpbUBWOiuCZkkliRisD0UP-mU/s320/Animation1.bmp" border="0" /></a><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#993399;"></span></div>Aileenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00632345595058917693noreply@blogger.com9